*sigh*

Hey guys~

Sorry I haven't really posted an entry for so long, but I've been really busy and whatnot with plenty of tests, exams, assignments and my own free time.

So now, I am considering some things, and I thought that maybe you'd like to hear (well, read).
Anyways guys, don't worry~ I know it sounds like it, but I'm seriously not writing a suicide note for you guys to read, although I do feel that I'm sharing something a bit close to my heart with this.

What has happened so far? Well, we've all got those days where we feel down and such, and lemme tell you guys, like a true nerd, I get easily depressed whenever I receive a bad test mark. :\ ...Yeah, not really much to you guys but when you nearly pass your applications for maths, you just feel gutted.

I was just half a mark away from passing applications, and what depresses me even more is that I was so careless in my work. So many silly mistakes, and now I feel like an awkward turtle just wanting to go back into its shell. Unfortunately, I am not a turtle, therefore, this depressing moment in my academic studies has pressed me to do the human nerd equivalent.

I have just decided to give myself one last chance with this advanced maths class. If I receive less than seventy percent on my next test, I will ask my teacher if I could go back to mainstream. If I go back to mainstream, then maybe I would have less on my workload, and less fuss with my studies.

I've already talked to my mum about this and she's all "do whatever you want". So yeah, nice support :S. The question is, do I work harder than ever before, or do I just sit back and see what I can do? Do I really want to give up advanced class? Do I really want to see my pride drop? I really do not know...

After all, if I do extremely well in mainstream, then they'll just put me up to advanced again, and I really do not want that.


Before I even went to advanced, I asked the teachers to not put me in there, and did they listen? T_T ...no...
*sob*

But I guess it's not as bad as I initially thought, but still... shall I continue with advanced, or try to quit it ASAP?

In confusion, I end this post
SSV